Sharp Turn, Brick Wall!

Well, my relationship with my husband has taken a sharp turn, full speed into a brick wall! Over the last week it has slowly deteriorated into nonexistence. We've barely spoken and I am now not sleeping in our bed.
I dont know maybe its just time to admit that we are two very different people and that our relationship is just not going to work. I mean really how many people these days actually stay with their high school sweetheart.
We've both changed, we are not the same people we were at 14 and 17. Maybe we've just changed too much over the last sixteen years to stay in this. We view everything differently.
Honestly, I feel like he just does not like me any more. The person ive become is not the same person he fell in love with at 17. Hes not the same person I fell in love with at 14, but ive watched him change, ive loved the person he changed and grew into, up until the last six months or so that is. Its like he doesnt really think about me, he doesnt even tell me whats going on in his life the majority of the time and most of the time I feel like hes just wishing id go away.
Ill admit the last few days I have pulled away. Ive made no effort at all to talk to him. I just decided that if he was gonna treat me that way then ill do it back. I know, not my most mature moments but honestly im tired of feeling like I dont matter to him, it hurts. It hurts to feel as tho the person you married doesnt want you around any more. I feel like in his eyes e everything I do is wrong. I dont want to spend the remainder of my life like this. Its not fair to either of us, and at this point it looks as tho it may not change....

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Update...

So, I registered for college! :) Im going to get certified as a medical assistant. It puts me a little bit closer to doing what I actually want to do, which is pediatric nursing. It offers many certifications in a short amount of time. In 9 months I will be certified in insurance, coding&billing, phlebotomy, ekg, urinalysis, and a few other things. Im hoping that this will give me more options as far as job opportunities and becoming a bit more financially stable. At this point we're living paycheck to paycheck and most of the time not even doing that. Its gonna be hard tho, I know that, my classes are Monday thru Thursday from 5:30pm-10:30pm. The school is about half an hour from my house so I wont have much time to see the kids after they get home from school, but I believe in the end it will be worth it. Im doing it to make a better life for myself and children, that is what ive got to remember when times get rough or I feel like I wanna quit. :)

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